If I Had A Hammer

Pete Seeger concert photo b&w

Pete Seeger concert photo b&w

If I had a hammer I’d hammer in the morning
I’d hammer in the evening
All over this land…

I’d hammer out danger,
I’d hammer out a warning,
I’d hammer out love between my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land.

A most famous song performed by Peter, Paul and Mary in the 60’s… the verse I think that really hit me was:

It’s the hammer of Justice,
It’s the bell of Freedom,
It’s the song about Love between my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land.

This song written by Pete Seeger and Lee Hays In 1949… Peter, Paul and Mary changed it a bit in 1963, but still the same premiss.  The Love we have between our Brother and our Sisters.  Not just in this country but on this planet… All over this Land!  This song is what came to mind with an experience had with new and old found friends…  Names are with held for privacy but I’ll use names… Maybe real maybe not.. that’s just how I roll…

As many things do, I am amazed…  The one thing, the thread we all share is humanity.  Even the most hard of heart has a place in his/her heart for something that is dear.   As a cancer commando, I am aware of the many things in this system that keep many from receiving the care that may save that life.  Like me, there are the folks that have been on that road and have found there are other ways…  But sadly, these too have a cost.  As a Physically challenged person dealing with pain on levels some days, I can’t even speak and needing money to nourish my body so it can heal.  Looking for a job as someone that is in constant pain and working to fight back the growths in this body is an exercise in futility but the battle roars on.  I choose to smile and be a happy man, this is also “how I roll”…  Sometimes it’s tough but without fail, everyday there comes a laugh, and somehow a guitar or something of music winds up on me and there’s the smile.  Pain and suffering still there but, beat back by the Grace Of God.  It has to be God.  Nothing else in the verse has this power…  Then he gives me friends, because these friends bring many smiles… WoW!

Friends, I have many… I cherish this more than gold.  Just when I’m down and have literally told myself I’m done, I surrender, please take me, why are you making me suffer so, do I really have a purpose?  I’m sorry, Please!!!   Then, there’s a hand, a word, that hammer comes with ever so light a touch to my heart.  A friend reaching out not in pity, not in sadness but with power, hey man, wassup!  It seems there is a faith that can over come. This faith in God and in the energy of a friend, all can be overcome.

I received a call last week from a friend from many years ago.  His little brother told him I was in town and gave him my number.  It was awesome to talk with my friend Jerry.  He gave me some news that touched my heart in a way that cannot be weighed.  He said, “remember when we used to sit down and you would teach me guitar” (40 years ago)… I said, Hey yeah!  he said, “well, I’m still playin every day and I owe it all to you, and I just wanted to thank you”…   Wow!  I’ve always said, I’m here for a reason, if for nothing else but to play a song that maybe just one person would hear and it would help him/her on the path to spiritual awareness the path to God.  Jerry is in a group to sings to the spirit of God and he taught his Son to play!  I was … I can’t even explain it and of course there was much emotion (ok I cried, I’m not really a sissy, I’m just an emotional dude so back off!  hahahah)  This to me, was a great thing…  How do you tell someone you may have sparked it and a lil push but he did all the work… I am but a humble Musician…

Official seal of City of Thousand Oaks

Official seal of City of Thousand Oaks

Then not a week later I’m on the great social network thing called facebook.  I’m a member of a group that is comprised of folks that either grew up or know someone that grew up in Thousand Oaks California (I Grew Up in Thousand Oaks, and then some).  What a great lil community this is.    I lived there back in the 60’s and 70’s.  I’m making new friends and we all get to know each other or re-kindle friendships.  As I do, I tend to share (maybe a bit to much) so there are no misunderstandings and also there’s the NO PITY rule.  So I’ve made some awesome friends and the banter runs a muck at times but if nobody takes it personal all is well.  Well, I made this friend, let’s just call him Jeff T.  (LoL!)  this last big 400+ million dollar jackpot, Mr Jeff T. bought a ticked and offered to share it with everyone in the group but you had to agree to terms.  The one that got me and just set me back, 10 mill had to go to Stevo (that’s me) to get medical treatment for this Cancer and to move to Nashville (which is my dream to get back to Nashville and play, play till I make it to the Opry)  Well, I gotta tell ya, this was a gesture that was to me beyond what the money was all about and everyone, know me or not was all in, I was blown away.  It was that Brother on Brother reaching out to help, and in communicating with Mr Jeff, this was what it was.  Was a genuine true spirit.  (and yes I wept, get off my back! lol)

So, If I had a hammer, and I could hammer out the love between my brothers and my sisters… I would indeed do that… most of all, I think I’m grateful to my Lord God for keeping me sane.  Even though I think I’m being tortured sometimes, It’s this body on this planet… My spirit is pain free, healthy and full of life, thanks to God, for Friends old and new  that I’ve been blessed with, and I keep on smile’n…

Y’all Be Cool… Give thanks, and pay attention… It’s what we are here for…

Peace…

Some Things Never Change, but, Some Things Do…

Ya know, I’ve said this a thousand times but I think I really get what I’m saying.  Some things never change… the visions and memories of your life, never change, (unless you are delusional)  those times will be always in the moment.  I don’t know, maybe it’s the way my mind works.  Writing music always puts me in the moment,  for instance Sunset, (yes I’ve posted this tune before but maybe there’s a few new folks that haven’t heard this)  🙂  When I wrote this song, I was in the back yard of a very cool house I lived in with friends in Reno NV.  It was sunset and I was in deep thought, (as I usually am) about a girl I know, then I started thinking of friends and family and life in general.  This is where this song was born, in the things that never change,  Unconditional Love, Cherished memories, Christmas, Calendars and Eggnog…

These things never change, the love and memories.  It’s what makes us who we are, well that and Cheerios…   So what does change, well, there are many things that change, the seasons, the color of my hair when I turned 50 and only getting better!   Car styles… But the true heart never changes.  When one is lonely or scared, where does one go… Back in time to look for happy place, secure, more pleasant times, for sanity.  I was talking with a dear friend on the phone this evening (yes I know, I don’t like phones but for loved ones, I make an exception), I admire this girl very much and is always awesome to be in touch, it brought to mind the things that have manifested in my time.  I’ve truly been blessed and am grateful for this.

Thank you friends for being the awesomeness that you are.  Thanks to God for these blessings…

I have much to say really but my mind is all over the place and for once I’m going to spare you (the reader) this madness of whimsical, but funny, nonsense.  Well I think it’s funny and that’s really all that matters, as I sit here and giggle… 🙂   Good night my many friends.  Take a moment and think of a time where you were whole and free, let this madness that is going on in our world go for a minute or two.  Turn off the TV’s and Computers and take a walk, in a park, on a path in the foothills, anywhere!  Take a breath of that Love and then spread it around a bit.  I think we could use a fresh perspective.

Who knows, it could be contagious…

Peace and Love to you…  Be Well…

stevo…

Whoa! Hold Your Horses!

Traditional Chinese Medicine

Traditional Chinese Medicine (Photo credit: Keith.Fulton)

Ok, this has nothing to do with horses.  Figure of speech, Stop!  in previous posts I’ve mentioned the several types of Cancers I have.  I also have mentioned the use of herbs and foods to combat this Cancer.  Well, today I was schooled in a big way.  I met and was treated by a Dr. of Chinese Medicine.  Not just an acupuncturist, not an herbololgist, but a Dr and Ph.D of Chinese Medicine.  TCM is the acronym (Traditional Chinese Medicine).  I know I know, what now Stevo, well, I’m about to share all of this and more.

So, it’s already been said, “I’ve been Schooled”.   While I was on the search for Thunder God Vine
as I’ve found a few other herbs to help nourish my body to heal.  So now I have some ammo but how do I use it.  Ya gotta know how to load the darn thing if your gonna shoot it…  I was talking with the Herb Lady at Lassen’s, she guided me to the Chinese Medicine Office down the street.  Well, I gotta tell ya, this Dr was very, very good.  First of all, with all my other ailments she first wanted to know about my pain.  I was like Pain?  I have Cancer forget the pain.  Well, if the pain can be addressed in the  body first, the body can exercise, more natural adrenaline, the immune system is boosted and then the body can fight and win.  Of course this is  all in a nutshell. Spoke with Dr Chen for over an hour on the location of my pain before she treated me.  A pretty
good outline on Chinese Medicine is Here on Wiki, and a pretty cool read.  Dr Yong Ping Chen is probably One of the coolest Dr.’s I’ve ever met.  She was very thorough and very patient.  I felt very comfortable.

Back to the reason I even went there in the first place, to see if I could get info on dose amounts for these herbs.  There are tons of webpages and sites telling you about a fruit or herb that will make you thin and or kills cancer, BUT, if you can find a site to advise you on dosage or quantity, good luck, but I’ve only been on the serious search for about 9 months…  Every Herb I mentioned she warned, yes these in high doses can kill cancer, however (I mean however!),  but THEY CAN BE TOXIC IN HIGH DOSES AND WILL USE YOUR OWN BODY TO POISON YOU…  It slapped me in the face like a brick.  Everything I’d ever head, learned, studied!  How could I’ve left out the concept (word) BALANCE… Balance Balance Balance!

Now, rather than beat myself up, now that I realize the wholeness of what needs to happen, I’m on this!  With the Body/Mind/Spirit Balanced you can do anything.  There are so many variables with cancer and even more with the Human Body.  Everyone of us have a distinct design, our DNA can be similar but we are very very different in many ways.  From Wikipedia: The human body is the entire structure of a human organism, and consists of a head, neck, torso, two arms and two legs. By the time the human reaches adulthood, the body consists of close to 100 trillion cells,[1] the basic unit of life.[2] These cells are organised biologically to eventually form the whole body. With only 100 different types of cancer cells, doesn’t sound so staggering…

100 trillion!

Point.  Not any “body” is the same, as there are many types of treatment for the same cell, it’s your body balance that makes it different.  The difference could be miniscule or substantial.   The statement “don’t give it power of you” is probably the most important but not to overcome any balance.  Here’s where I have the problem.  If you are weak at heart might wanna skip to the next paragraph (heh, I know tempting huh)…  I panic,  and if you’ve ever stood in front of a toilet and watched Grape Juice colored urine flow out the end of your penis, and then, a quarter sized blood clot flops out, well, that shit ain’t supposed to happen.  So you’re standing thinking, well, I guess I have a problem, or like me, “Shit, It’s Back!…  Now I’m in panic mode, I’ve forgotten everything I learned while practicing Whole body Health, Tai Chi, Kung Fu or even younger Kenpo and Shotokan… Anything I’ve learned from friends and Loved ones.  Balance, clam the mind so it can flow with the spirit, the mind and spirit can only meet the body when they are in tune…  If you try to do anything, mentally/physical or Spiritual with out complete balance/harmony, you will spiral back to the beginning, maybe further, wondering what the hell happened.   The panic overtook me to the point I felt desperate. For some reason being told I have tumors on both Kidneys, Liver, Bladder and prostate, then one blood test later, let’s add Leukemia   to the mix,  SNAP!  Oh and lets pile forcing myself  to be homeless because I didn’t want to be a burden… I wonder where that ever came from?  I think I’ll address that later in my sleep…

Grabbing at anything I thought would bring an end to this madness led me to the present state of calm.  In looking for a way to use these “Cancer SuperFoods: I spoke with the Herb Lady at Lassen’s, Oh, here we are back at Lassen’s, Hmm, yes…  There is so much if you try to tackle it all at one time.  Just like the body, gradual changes can only occur naturally with any benefit.  Example, I once was in outstanding shape, a pretty healthy dude.  I then created an environment for things to happen in my body that aren’t so healthy for a long life on this planet.  This happened gradually, slowly over time it took it’s toll.  So there can be no quick fix, actually, there are no real quick fixes for anything, right?  (ok, maybe a finger in the Dyke, but that’s only temporary)…

English: A Yin-Yang symbol transformed into He...

English: A Yin-Yang symbol transformed into Heaven and Earth, with the Chinese characters for each. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, it is considered that Heaven is Yang and Earth is Yin, so that is how they are represented here. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Acupuncture, I had a treatment today and it reduced my pain by over 50 to 70%.   I am set for my second treatment on Friday.  As soon as I can exercise and get my body moving, this is the focus of treatment.  However, when I mentioned Diet and herbs, she told me to concentrate on whole foods.  No red meat, fish is good.  no dairy (at all) water, green tea and green veggies.   When I eat let the body know this is ok for healing and good.  Stay away from eating till I’m full.  Let the body work itself and this is the start.  There is much more.  I’m also seeing a Naturapathic Doctor in Santa Monica.  Making informed and guided decisions are key at this point.  Both Doctors are trusted so I’m on this path.  Both are about balance and letting the body work to heal.  God made this amazing self righting machine to function well always if properly maintained and fueled.  Prayer, (part of the balance) will be the glue that keeps me focused.  Putting myself in panic mode is not healthy, nor will it get the healing done!

So, with all that has happened in the last week.  Reuniting with Family, Friends, Home, I have taken my own advise.  I stand barefoot in the cool grass, both morning and evening.  This is where I pray, this is where I gather balance and thoughts for the day.  I pray that you all take a moment and gather your Balance, Talk with God, give thanks for another day on planet earth and guide us to a better way, until we go home… Not to some strange mystical place or a feared Judgment.  Home…  If you have read this because you have or know someone that has Cancer, or you follow these rambling words.  Take a moment to be the one that stands true, prevent panic (you are a Hero).  What ever treatment you choose will be your choice and your balance.  I hope it is a more natural approach, however, there is no right or wrong way.  Most Cancer treatments today include a diet geared toward keeping the Immune System geared up for what ever treatment… really think about it and do your homework, and find your balance.  With what I’ve learned in the last few days, even the most harmless of herb, done in concentrations to kill cancer (because it can), it’s no different than doing Chemical Chemo Treatments.  Sometimes this may be necessary, I would opt for a natural option than a chemical.  But that’s just me.  You all are in my prayers and with enough of that maybe we can fix the whole deal.

Alright, God Bless & Stay Safe…

Peace…

SunCross

yinyang

I’ll Be Back…

Greetings and Salutations!

Well, it’s that time… As a homeless person in this great land of ours I must take a break and relocate.  Ya know, I type these stories as if I’m talking to you on a personal level.  That’s because that’s how I deal with life, it’s personal.  (in a good way of course!)  I’ve stated on more than one occasion, my faith and my relationship with God.  With that said, I must say, “in this great land of ours” as a homeless person I can have a facebook page and a blog.  I communicate what and when, I think I would like to communicate with great affection, “This is not a bad thing”…  Yes it can be a drag sometimes when it gets cold, (or way hot) where do I get my mail, where will I get my next meal.  I am a total failure at Pan Handling.  Not only am I terrible at it, I usually give away what I’ve gotten… Well, a very close and dear friend of mine set it in my mind, and it set well, as it is a friend who has been a spiritual mentor to me for most of my life.  He Baptized me, he keeps strong in his faith, like a lighthouse in the fog he has always been there and always will be..  “Let go and Let God”   His wife Also a friend of many years is a pinnacle of faith, both friends for over 40 years… This is truly a friendship, Truly a gift from God…  He always has a grip on me, Praise God…. Amen…

Ok, Back to my point here… It’s time for me to move on.  I’ve been in the shelter of my Brother Chris and his Aunt Francine.  What lovely and generous friends.  I know there is no way to repay but I will keep you in my prayers always!  My brothers Ron and Rob have offered me shelter and a path to health.  With this Cancer fighting to stay in my body I must do battle with strong faith that the divine healer will do his work, so I must feed my body with healthy foods and my brothers have so kindly offered to assist me in this battle.  I can already feel my body healing.  I’m brighter and more alert than I’ve been in a very long time.  I’m moving around and in much less pain than I’ve been in some time.

I’m also making my way to the California coast, as I feel called to do so.  Not only is it a place of much joy in my memories of my youth.  I feel a strong calling to be there.  Oh, don’t get me wrong, Nashville is still my ultimate calling, I will live in Nashville soon.  However, I feel there is something I need to do and it is near the Ocean in the place of my youth…  So this is what I shall do…

There are so many things I need to learn and I know it’s all so I may bring Gods word to those that thirst for his Love, as well as the one that doesn’t know.  There are so many that have either been misled or have no idea about Gods plan for us all in our coming home.   We will return to the Father and we will be surrounded and protected by his love.  OH yeah, Pastor Roland, I’m way long winded… there is no contest.. LoL!  Just ask anyone who reads my stuff… I think it’s the look on their face when they see a post by me… Oh boy, better get a cup of coffee, LoL!  I love it!

This is not a goodbye for a long time.   I have a device that if I’m near a free wifi connection I can still check and comment.  I’m not one for typing out long posts on a small computer device.  My fingers are fat and I don’t txt well… 🙂

One final thing… in my “Dream in a Dream” post I discovered what, Barooch Atahah Adonay means…  My spelling is off only because  I’m hooked on phonics… The spelling is Baruch atah Adonai, and is a basic blessing in Hebrew.  Baruch Atah Adonai, Eloheinu Melech Ha’Olam, Sh’hecheyanu, V’Kiyemanu, V’Higianu LaZman HaZeh. Translation: Praised are You, the Eternal One our God, Ruler of the Cosmos, who has kept us alive, sustained us, and enabled us to reach this moment.  This is something for me to think about.  I’m learning to speak Spanish, I’m think’n Hebrew and Latin would be an awesome thing to do… Ya know they say, learning a new language keeps the mind sharp…  Nothing better than a sharp mind… Hmmm I wonder, I might still be married… Naaaah… LoL!

Brotherhood of the Sound… I’ve added this button and this will be more Faith Based writings of how I feel and follow my faith in playing and writing music, with my Brothers…  That story will be there as well as a song that explains the beginning of my path in faith. Song Title “Tribute”

To those that follow and actually read these ramblings, Thank you… I truly hope somewhere in this mess there is a message for you.  I can tell ya one thing for sure… If you have a Question… all you have to do is ask.  Ask Father God and he will tell you… and all you have to do is listen… Pretty cool stuff.   To be a part of a Musical Praise and Worship Ministry is something I truly aspire to attain.  I truly believe music is yet another way to find truth and the path to the teachings of Jesus Christ…  Keep an ear out for my Brother Ron and I.  He is truly strong in faith and truly an excellent Musician!  With this combo, look out!

Gods Blessings and a safe path to all… I’ll be groovin and takin in what the Good Lord brings me.  I’ll letcha know where I land…

Y’all be cool…

Peace…

Stevo…

PS… Oh, ya know I was thinking in my post “Life and Time fo Stevo & A Time For Thanks”.  There are so many to thank in my life.  someday I will set down and make a list (only cause that’s what I do)…  You all know who you are and I Love you with all my heart.  I would take a bullet for anyone in my life that is my brother or sister.  actually I think I would take a bullet for anyone who was in danger.

But that’s another Story… 🙂

Sometimes it Rains… Dreams Begin…

I’ve been dreaming much as of late, and last nights dream just kinda kicked it all into perspective with me.  For a very long time I’ve been just mentally wondering around dealing with this Cancer Thing.  I say “Cancer Thing” because after speaking with some of my friends in this area (ok, big parentheses here regarding my friends. I mean I don’t put my friends on any different level or respect or love any one friend more than another, there are just some things some of my friends are more, lets say, knowledgeable in, and I respect that…  so there… )  Oh, yes, anyway…

I was speaking with my friend in North Carolina, who I regard as pretty knowledgeable in spiritual areas and healing.  I would talk to my friend in Florida but I still don’t have her number… (eh hem)….  🙂 ok enough silly.  Now I have massive faith in God, and I’ve been enlightened in his Glory.  I also believe in believing in ones self, Be still and know I am God…  and there is the “Law of Attraction”…  After many hours of council and reading and meditating and praying on not giving energy to this Cancer, I found I’ve been doing just that…  Giving this “Cancer Thing” power over all of my energy, over all my life.  Not that I doubt that I can heal the self, heal the body and mind, but that’s all I think about, “The Cancer Thing”

The “Law of Attraction”.  Here’s the deal.  We hear that our reality is what our attention is focused on.  This leads us into shaping this reality a certain way.  This is often a mind-led desire based sense of lack.  So if everything is consciousness and therefore the outer world is shaped by what we’re being within.  But desire is still associated with the lower densities, as is denial, which locks fragments of soul consciousness into materiality.  You can intentionally bring your attention into the higher realms of consciousness through meditation for example, but unless you’ve harmonized the various flows of energy throughout your body, then you’ll simply be sucked back down again at some point.

Sound, Harmony, Dream, Love…  In order to leave slavery one must surrender.  This is what I did last night when I lay down for sleep.  I was very tired, but I needed to do something.  So I surrendered, and fell in to a deep sleep.  I fell into a dream that left off from the dreams I’ve been experiencing for the last few weeks.  This ongoing dream is getting more, let’s say a very clear vision.  I recognized the beat to “Sometimes it Rains”, my guitar was crystal clean, then Carols voice was surreal and I was walking thru a park.  This park could have been in New York, Kansas City, Nashville, it was everywhere and all surrounding…

I met this girl that I’ve been meeting in these dreams walking through this park.  I then go into my vocal lead on the song “Sometimes it Rains”  I was walking around this tall, girl, Sometimes it Rains just a little… Then my good friend Christine was singing the “you can start it again & again” (ok, after all it is a dream) part of the song… Then the song faded, the spinning feeling of going around in this park subsided and I was sitting on a bench with a person that was neither man nor woman.  Actually I didn’t feel that was even a part of it, it didn’t matter.  All I could feel was pure love.  Sitting on a bench in a park with green on green grass and trees.

This Being of Beauty reached out and touched me and I could feel it as if I was wide awake and spoke.  “Sometimes it rains, and these tears are cleansing you.  You’ve surrendered, this is your healing, your fears are not real, now forgive…  forgive…”  and I drifted off to what looked like an apartment I lived in in Lake Tahoe.  This is where I started writing many songs over 20 something years ago, where I really started to feel like a musician.  Where I could play for hours and hours and people would come and go.  Some would come just to listen and then go and I would have no idea how many had come and gone.  I wrote the song Tribute there.  Pat put in a few lines in that song that worked really well.   I started to hear the sound of my Guitar, this deep droning with underlying melodies.  My Brother Rob and Ron were there, Ron was playing and Rob was writing,  We played for what seemed like hours…

I’ve written most of these  dreams and will post them later and will elaborate as these dreams are very detailed and very colorful.

On Facebook I receive many posts on my home page as I have many friends and have liked many pages.  From the Hippy Loft I saw this awesome Pic with the caption, “Miracles start to happen when you give as much energy to your dreams as you do your fears”  Don’t know who coined that phrase but it was what I needed to see right when I needed to see it.

Ya know, I’ve been many places on this planet.  Some were most beautiful, some kinda smelled funny, but no matter where I was I could always feel the energy of the people around me.  I knew I was safe, (ok, in some of those places I had a loaded M16A1 Rifle but we won’t go there).  I’ve always looked at people as I walked by and would say Hey.  Some smiled and some didn’t even put there eyes on me.  I’ve been in the streets a time or two and have peered into empty soulless eyes, shared smiles and laughter mostly but the ones that are empty have always scared me somehow and now I know why.  Fear…  The fear that I might wind up like that, a man leaning on a wall hungry with no soul…  I since of lost that fear, this is not my destiny, I Am Loved!  I am Free!

So to create this inner self Alchemy and allowing me to heal, there are things that must be done…  Surrender,  Sensitivity, Intimacy, Softening and Expansion.  Now is that all there is?  Well I could do Yoga or another form of meditation but all of these come in most if not all forms of mediation.  Everything is consciousness, surrender your desires for reality to be a certain way…  Be Sensitive, respond to how you are feeling,  even if that’s pain. and surrender that pain…  Intimacy, sensitivity leads to higher inner intimacy and start to explore the “what is”…  Softening, in exploring ‘what is’, there’s a sense of softening into this vibration, unwinding any tension or tightness…  Expansion, when you’ve softened into that particular experience, you’ve ‘pulled the thread’ of revealing consciousness and begun to watch it unravel, then it’s about allowing the expansion to happen through you.  Praise God!  Giving thanks and asking God for total healing is a huge part of Expansion for me.  And this is just the beginning!

So for the most part this is that last time you will hear me speak of or let that “Cancer Thing” have power over me.  I know there are a few that have Cancer that read this blog, to your brothers and sisters, I implore you to release this hold you are allowing.  You will choose what ever method of  treatment and how I’m working thru my experience is the way I choose.  However, release it’s power over you, help yourself help your body.  By this I mean with the most powerful thing there is, your words,  when you say, I have cancer, guess what?  You give it power over you.  It’s your mind/choice that determines the outcome of your life.  Live it!

Sometimes it Rains just a little… Yes it does… Rain Cleans and soothes soul.  To loose your fears is a feat to be true, to deny that would be an exercise in futility.  However, you can loose your fears and live your life to everything you can imagine…  Give your energy to your Dreams, Give thanks to God and watch Miracles happen!

Y’all be cool… Till next Jam…

Peace….

The Beginning…

Serenity is Back!!!

This is more than a great thing, this is the one thing that made my heart soar.  As it turned out she was take from me whist in a homeless state.  With the help of my dear friends and an over the top travel, she was returned to me unscathed.  A new set of strings and we’re making music once again…. The song Serenity (The Road Home) was the first song written on her…

To my most awesome friends Ace and Susan, Ace being a Brother since we were like 7 years old, retrieved her form her captors and drove to this desert and returned her to me.  Now that’s a Brother….  Thanks to you guys for taking the time and Money to return her to me.   You are forever in my heart as Hero’s.  Well you were before but this was over the top!  I’m so Happy!!!

She is also the Guitar you see me with most of my pics….  Just thought I’d tell the world!!!  I am Loved and I know it… I will return this favor in on way or the other!!!

Peace…

As I Listen…

As of late I’ve been in much pain.  Physical pain…. Mostly I pray thru the pain and it takes me to a place I can deal with it, but for some reason I’m paralyzed by the raging in my body.  Mostly I could pick up my guitar and play thru this time but as of late it’s just to intense.  In prayer I was guided to listening.

When I was young I was very, let’s say, uppity.  I had a teacher that would amaze me with her teaching so I was usually very good but as kids do I would just lose it… (makes me laugh just thinking of those times).   I remember her grabbing my face, not hard, just to get my total attention.  She said to me,  “God gave you two ears and one mouth, why do you think that is mister?”  of course I said I don’t know cause I was really kinda scared.  “To make sure you use your ears more than your mouth, listen more and talk less”…  I got it…  If I remember right I was an A student in that class after that…  What a great memory…

So now I’m 41 years older and she is still in my mind and heart.  Back to Listening.  I plugged in the mp3 player with some old recordings I’ve been working on for some time and some semi finished stuff and found myself immersed in this and found myself calm and only when I thought of it did the pain return.

Sound, I’ve always thought of what I play as a gift from God and have wondered if I would be given the gift to play to help heal others in pain or suffering in all areas.  Physical, Spiritual, what ever.  I’ve listened to much music and feel it all.  I know the sound I like and it makes me feel good or what ever way I want to feel.

Recently I’ve been united with my Brother Ron.  A fantastic Musician,  however he had an accident and severed his hand.  it was re attached, however it was not like before.  Being of the same blood and belief in God and Sound, and even though he was told he would never play again he suffered thru many hours of pain to play, fulfill his destiny, if you will.  He still plays how well we shall soon see.  It’s been way to many years (over 15 years since I’ve seen my Brother.  He will be helping me along with my Brother Rob in working with my body to heal from this Cancer and during this we will play… I remember years when we were kids, we would play.  I started to teach him and he took that one and ran.  He was soon a far more technical musician than I…  I was proud and would hope to compose with him someday.  this day may come to pass soon… I pray it does…  I’ve always believed in the Brotherhood of the Sound…  It is our true gift from God…

So as I listen to the music of my making and of some very close friends Like Hanpeter Kruesi, he composes in Switzerland, I have found a place to lose this temporary state my body is in.  There is still much work to be done…  But it is being done… Praise God it’s being done…

Amen…