If I Had A Hammer

Pete Seeger concert photo b&w

Pete Seeger concert photo b&w

If I had a hammer I’d hammer in the morning
I’d hammer in the evening
All over this land…

I’d hammer out danger,
I’d hammer out a warning,
I’d hammer out love between my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land.

A most famous song performed by Peter, Paul and Mary in the 60’s… the verse I think that really hit me was:

It’s the hammer of Justice,
It’s the bell of Freedom,
It’s the song about Love between my brothers and my sisters,
All over this land.

This song written by Pete Seeger and Lee Hays In 1949… Peter, Paul and Mary changed it a bit in 1963, but still the same premiss.  The Love we have between our Brother and our Sisters.  Not just in this country but on this planet… All over this Land!  This song is what came to mind with an experience had with new and old found friends…  Names are with held for privacy but I’ll use names… Maybe real maybe not.. that’s just how I roll…

As many things do, I am amazed…  The one thing, the thread we all share is humanity.  Even the most hard of heart has a place in his/her heart for something that is dear.   As a cancer commando, I am aware of the many things in this system that keep many from receiving the care that may save that life.  Like me, there are the folks that have been on that road and have found there are other ways…  But sadly, these too have a cost.  As a Physically challenged person dealing with pain on levels some days, I can’t even speak and needing money to nourish my body so it can heal.  Looking for a job as someone that is in constant pain and working to fight back the growths in this body is an exercise in futility but the battle roars on.  I choose to smile and be a happy man, this is also “how I roll”…  Sometimes it’s tough but without fail, everyday there comes a laugh, and somehow a guitar or something of music winds up on me and there’s the smile.  Pain and suffering still there but, beat back by the Grace Of God.  It has to be God.  Nothing else in the verse has this power…  Then he gives me friends, because these friends bring many smiles… WoW!

Friends, I have many… I cherish this more than gold.  Just when I’m down and have literally told myself I’m done, I surrender, please take me, why are you making me suffer so, do I really have a purpose?  I’m sorry, Please!!!   Then, there’s a hand, a word, that hammer comes with ever so light a touch to my heart.  A friend reaching out not in pity, not in sadness but with power, hey man, wassup!  It seems there is a faith that can over come. This faith in God and in the energy of a friend, all can be overcome.

I received a call last week from a friend from many years ago.  His little brother told him I was in town and gave him my number.  It was awesome to talk with my friend Jerry.  He gave me some news that touched my heart in a way that cannot be weighed.  He said, “remember when we used to sit down and you would teach me guitar” (40 years ago)… I said, Hey yeah!  he said, “well, I’m still playin every day and I owe it all to you, and I just wanted to thank you”…   Wow!  I’ve always said, I’m here for a reason, if for nothing else but to play a song that maybe just one person would hear and it would help him/her on the path to spiritual awareness the path to God.  Jerry is in a group to sings to the spirit of God and he taught his Son to play!  I was … I can’t even explain it and of course there was much emotion (ok I cried, I’m not really a sissy, I’m just an emotional dude so back off!  hahahah)  This to me, was a great thing…  How do you tell someone you may have sparked it and a lil push but he did all the work… I am but a humble Musician…

Official seal of City of Thousand Oaks

Official seal of City of Thousand Oaks

Then not a week later I’m on the great social network thing called facebook.  I’m a member of a group that is comprised of folks that either grew up or know someone that grew up in Thousand Oaks California (I Grew Up in Thousand Oaks, and then some).  What a great lil community this is.    I lived there back in the 60’s and 70’s.  I’m making new friends and we all get to know each other or re-kindle friendships.  As I do, I tend to share (maybe a bit to much) so there are no misunderstandings and also there’s the NO PITY rule.  So I’ve made some awesome friends and the banter runs a muck at times but if nobody takes it personal all is well.  Well, I made this friend, let’s just call him Jeff T.  (LoL!)  this last big 400+ million dollar jackpot, Mr Jeff T. bought a ticked and offered to share it with everyone in the group but you had to agree to terms.  The one that got me and just set me back, 10 mill had to go to Stevo (that’s me) to get medical treatment for this Cancer and to move to Nashville (which is my dream to get back to Nashville and play, play till I make it to the Opry)  Well, I gotta tell ya, this was a gesture that was to me beyond what the money was all about and everyone, know me or not was all in, I was blown away.  It was that Brother on Brother reaching out to help, and in communicating with Mr Jeff, this was what it was.  Was a genuine true spirit.  (and yes I wept, get off my back! lol)

So, If I had a hammer, and I could hammer out the love between my brothers and my sisters… I would indeed do that… most of all, I think I’m grateful to my Lord God for keeping me sane.  Even though I think I’m being tortured sometimes, It’s this body on this planet… My spirit is pain free, healthy and full of life, thanks to God, for Friends old and new  that I’ve been blessed with, and I keep on smile’n…

Y’all Be Cool… Give thanks, and pay attention… It’s what we are here for…

Peace…

Some Things Never Change, but, Some Things Do…

Ya know, I’ve said this a thousand times but I think I really get what I’m saying.  Some things never change… the visions and memories of your life, never change, (unless you are delusional)  those times will be always in the moment.  I don’t know, maybe it’s the way my mind works.  Writing music always puts me in the moment,  for instance Sunset, (yes I’ve posted this tune before but maybe there’s a few new folks that haven’t heard this)  🙂  When I wrote this song, I was in the back yard of a very cool house I lived in with friends in Reno NV.  It was sunset and I was in deep thought, (as I usually am) about a girl I know, then I started thinking of friends and family and life in general.  This is where this song was born, in the things that never change,  Unconditional Love, Cherished memories, Christmas, Calendars and Eggnog…

These things never change, the love and memories.  It’s what makes us who we are, well that and Cheerios…   So what does change, well, there are many things that change, the seasons, the color of my hair when I turned 50 and only getting better!   Car styles… But the true heart never changes.  When one is lonely or scared, where does one go… Back in time to look for happy place, secure, more pleasant times, for sanity.  I was talking with a dear friend on the phone this evening (yes I know, I don’t like phones but for loved ones, I make an exception), I admire this girl very much and is always awesome to be in touch, it brought to mind the things that have manifested in my time.  I’ve truly been blessed and am grateful for this.

Thank you friends for being the awesomeness that you are.  Thanks to God for these blessings…

I have much to say really but my mind is all over the place and for once I’m going to spare you (the reader) this madness of whimsical, but funny, nonsense.  Well I think it’s funny and that’s really all that matters, as I sit here and giggle… 🙂   Good night my many friends.  Take a moment and think of a time where you were whole and free, let this madness that is going on in our world go for a minute or two.  Turn off the TV’s and Computers and take a walk, in a park, on a path in the foothills, anywhere!  Take a breath of that Love and then spread it around a bit.  I think we could use a fresh perspective.

Who knows, it could be contagious…

Peace and Love to you…  Be Well…

stevo…

Sum-Sum-Summer Time!

the jamies

The Jamies

I’m sure you remember this rolling tune, by The Jamies, that brings in the full feel of this season of WARM! Summer Time!!!  Yeah!  Oh don’t get me wrong I love winter…  Actually, I like to come up with tunes, songs, melodies, you know, with a cup of hot chocolate, kick’n it and watching it snow…. but then that’s for winter… Summer is time for putting together those tunes, melodies and songs.  Time for shorts on sunny days in the park with noodle salad and watermelon, smiles and kids dancing in the sprinklers…  A Happy Time…

English: Original oil painting by Pappi, 2008.

Well, I guess you can have happy times any ol time of the year but there’s no happy time like, thawing out your feet in the sun.  Yes, yes, taking the table chair out to the yard and watching the sun sink behind the desert mountains with a guitar in your lap singing to the glory of God…  Sing to that girl…  That girl that will always remind you of Summer.  Her hair could be red or blond or black.  Her name could be Rebecca or Ohhh… Any name that will cost you plenty to have tattooed on your back…  Yes, I’m talking Summer!  Ok, Ok, I know it’s not officially Summer but in the desert above Las Vegas it sure feels like it.  So it’s a bit more sultry here in Pahrumph Nevada, above Las Vegas.  So I when I think of summer I think of it more like Janis… You know JJ… Joplin!  One of my childhood crush’s… Damn I was in Love with Janis!

Life is good…

It won’t be long till I leave this great plain above Las Vegas for the cool coastal areas.  Ahhh, the coast of California…  I take a minute to remember and then dream about what is about to be… But then that’s a dream…  I love to dream, I love to remember long walks down the coast… A few days in Pismo to heal from blisters from that walk…  Pismo sounds good… Oh The songs that were written, and the songs that are about to happen…  I Love to Dream…

Ok Y’all…  Give thanks for what you have and yes even the challenges that you may face, as they are a wake up call for you to pay attention…. And Groove on this Adventure…  I’ve said it before, so I have to say it again…  If you don’t have a guitar, go buy, borrow, or sit close to one in the park and listen…  Play, there is a song in everyone, sing it, play it, and write it down.  And then share it, there may be someone that needs to hear what you have to share…

Be Blessed!

Peace…

Groove Yeah…

Sometimes it Rains… Dreams Begin…

I’ve been dreaming much as of late, and last nights dream just kinda kicked it all into perspective with me.  For a very long time I’ve been just mentally wondering around dealing with this Cancer Thing.  I say “Cancer Thing” because after speaking with some of my friends in this area (ok, big parentheses here regarding my friends. I mean I don’t put my friends on any different level or respect or love any one friend more than another, there are just some things some of my friends are more, lets say, knowledgeable in, and I respect that…  so there… )  Oh, yes, anyway…

I was speaking with my friend in North Carolina, who I regard as pretty knowledgeable in spiritual areas and healing.  I would talk to my friend in Florida but I still don’t have her number… (eh hem)….  🙂 ok enough silly.  Now I have massive faith in God, and I’ve been enlightened in his Glory.  I also believe in believing in ones self, Be still and know I am God…  and there is the “Law of Attraction”…  After many hours of council and reading and meditating and praying on not giving energy to this Cancer, I found I’ve been doing just that…  Giving this “Cancer Thing” power over all of my energy, over all my life.  Not that I doubt that I can heal the self, heal the body and mind, but that’s all I think about, “The Cancer Thing”

The “Law of Attraction”.  Here’s the deal.  We hear that our reality is what our attention is focused on.  This leads us into shaping this reality a certain way.  This is often a mind-led desire based sense of lack.  So if everything is consciousness and therefore the outer world is shaped by what we’re being within.  But desire is still associated with the lower densities, as is denial, which locks fragments of soul consciousness into materiality.  You can intentionally bring your attention into the higher realms of consciousness through meditation for example, but unless you’ve harmonized the various flows of energy throughout your body, then you’ll simply be sucked back down again at some point.

Sound, Harmony, Dream, Love…  In order to leave slavery one must surrender.  This is what I did last night when I lay down for sleep.  I was very tired, but I needed to do something.  So I surrendered, and fell in to a deep sleep.  I fell into a dream that left off from the dreams I’ve been experiencing for the last few weeks.  This ongoing dream is getting more, let’s say a very clear vision.  I recognized the beat to “Sometimes it Rains”, my guitar was crystal clean, then Carols voice was surreal and I was walking thru a park.  This park could have been in New York, Kansas City, Nashville, it was everywhere and all surrounding…

I met this girl that I’ve been meeting in these dreams walking through this park.  I then go into my vocal lead on the song “Sometimes it Rains”  I was walking around this tall, girl, Sometimes it Rains just a little… Then my good friend Christine was singing the “you can start it again & again” (ok, after all it is a dream) part of the song… Then the song faded, the spinning feeling of going around in this park subsided and I was sitting on a bench with a person that was neither man nor woman.  Actually I didn’t feel that was even a part of it, it didn’t matter.  All I could feel was pure love.  Sitting on a bench in a park with green on green grass and trees.

This Being of Beauty reached out and touched me and I could feel it as if I was wide awake and spoke.  “Sometimes it rains, and these tears are cleansing you.  You’ve surrendered, this is your healing, your fears are not real, now forgive…  forgive…”  and I drifted off to what looked like an apartment I lived in in Lake Tahoe.  This is where I started writing many songs over 20 something years ago, where I really started to feel like a musician.  Where I could play for hours and hours and people would come and go.  Some would come just to listen and then go and I would have no idea how many had come and gone.  I wrote the song Tribute there.  Pat put in a few lines in that song that worked really well.   I started to hear the sound of my Guitar, this deep droning with underlying melodies.  My Brother Rob and Ron were there, Ron was playing and Rob was writing,  We played for what seemed like hours…

I’ve written most of these  dreams and will post them later and will elaborate as these dreams are very detailed and very colorful.

On Facebook I receive many posts on my home page as I have many friends and have liked many pages.  From the Hippy Loft I saw this awesome Pic with the caption, “Miracles start to happen when you give as much energy to your dreams as you do your fears”  Don’t know who coined that phrase but it was what I needed to see right when I needed to see it.

Ya know, I’ve been many places on this planet.  Some were most beautiful, some kinda smelled funny, but no matter where I was I could always feel the energy of the people around me.  I knew I was safe, (ok, in some of those places I had a loaded M16A1 Rifle but we won’t go there).  I’ve always looked at people as I walked by and would say Hey.  Some smiled and some didn’t even put there eyes on me.  I’ve been in the streets a time or two and have peered into empty soulless eyes, shared smiles and laughter mostly but the ones that are empty have always scared me somehow and now I know why.  Fear…  The fear that I might wind up like that, a man leaning on a wall hungry with no soul…  I since of lost that fear, this is not my destiny, I Am Loved!  I am Free!

So to create this inner self Alchemy and allowing me to heal, there are things that must be done…  Surrender,  Sensitivity, Intimacy, Softening and Expansion.  Now is that all there is?  Well I could do Yoga or another form of meditation but all of these come in most if not all forms of mediation.  Everything is consciousness, surrender your desires for reality to be a certain way…  Be Sensitive, respond to how you are feeling,  even if that’s pain. and surrender that pain…  Intimacy, sensitivity leads to higher inner intimacy and start to explore the “what is”…  Softening, in exploring ‘what is’, there’s a sense of softening into this vibration, unwinding any tension or tightness…  Expansion, when you’ve softened into that particular experience, you’ve ‘pulled the thread’ of revealing consciousness and begun to watch it unravel, then it’s about allowing the expansion to happen through you.  Praise God!  Giving thanks and asking God for total healing is a huge part of Expansion for me.  And this is just the beginning!

So for the most part this is that last time you will hear me speak of or let that “Cancer Thing” have power over me.  I know there are a few that have Cancer that read this blog, to your brothers and sisters, I implore you to release this hold you are allowing.  You will choose what ever method of  treatment and how I’m working thru my experience is the way I choose.  However, release it’s power over you, help yourself help your body.  By this I mean with the most powerful thing there is, your words,  when you say, I have cancer, guess what?  You give it power over you.  It’s your mind/choice that determines the outcome of your life.  Live it!

Sometimes it Rains just a little… Yes it does… Rain Cleans and soothes soul.  To loose your fears is a feat to be true, to deny that would be an exercise in futility.  However, you can loose your fears and live your life to everything you can imagine…  Give your energy to your Dreams, Give thanks to God and watch Miracles happen!

Y’all be cool… Till next Jam…

Peace….

The Beginning…

Serenity is Back!!!

This is more than a great thing, this is the one thing that made my heart soar.  As it turned out she was take from me whist in a homeless state.  With the help of my dear friends and an over the top travel, she was returned to me unscathed.  A new set of strings and we’re making music once again…. The song Serenity (The Road Home) was the first song written on her…

To my most awesome friends Ace and Susan, Ace being a Brother since we were like 7 years old, retrieved her form her captors and drove to this desert and returned her to me.  Now that’s a Brother….  Thanks to you guys for taking the time and Money to return her to me.   You are forever in my heart as Hero’s.  Well you were before but this was over the top!  I’m so Happy!!!

She is also the Guitar you see me with most of my pics….  Just thought I’d tell the world!!!  I am Loved and I know it… I will return this favor in on way or the other!!!

Peace…

As I Listen…

As of late I’ve been in much pain.  Physical pain…. Mostly I pray thru the pain and it takes me to a place I can deal with it, but for some reason I’m paralyzed by the raging in my body.  Mostly I could pick up my guitar and play thru this time but as of late it’s just to intense.  In prayer I was guided to listening.

When I was young I was very, let’s say, uppity.  I had a teacher that would amaze me with her teaching so I was usually very good but as kids do I would just lose it… (makes me laugh just thinking of those times).   I remember her grabbing my face, not hard, just to get my total attention.  She said to me,  “God gave you two ears and one mouth, why do you think that is mister?”  of course I said I don’t know cause I was really kinda scared.  “To make sure you use your ears more than your mouth, listen more and talk less”…  I got it…  If I remember right I was an A student in that class after that…  What a great memory…

So now I’m 41 years older and she is still in my mind and heart.  Back to Listening.  I plugged in the mp3 player with some old recordings I’ve been working on for some time and some semi finished stuff and found myself immersed in this and found myself calm and only when I thought of it did the pain return.

Sound, I’ve always thought of what I play as a gift from God and have wondered if I would be given the gift to play to help heal others in pain or suffering in all areas.  Physical, Spiritual, what ever.  I’ve listened to much music and feel it all.  I know the sound I like and it makes me feel good or what ever way I want to feel.

Recently I’ve been united with my Brother Ron.  A fantastic Musician,  however he had an accident and severed his hand.  it was re attached, however it was not like before.  Being of the same blood and belief in God and Sound, and even though he was told he would never play again he suffered thru many hours of pain to play, fulfill his destiny, if you will.  He still plays how well we shall soon see.  It’s been way to many years (over 15 years since I’ve seen my Brother.  He will be helping me along with my Brother Rob in working with my body to heal from this Cancer and during this we will play… I remember years when we were kids, we would play.  I started to teach him and he took that one and ran.  He was soon a far more technical musician than I…  I was proud and would hope to compose with him someday.  this day may come to pass soon… I pray it does…  I’ve always believed in the Brotherhood of the Sound…  It is our true gift from God…

So as I listen to the music of my making and of some very close friends Like Hanpeter Kruesi, he composes in Switzerland, I have found a place to lose this temporary state my body is in.  There is still much work to be done…  But it is being done… Praise God it’s being done…

Amen…

Sometimes It Rains (just a little)

This tune has a very special place in my heart. Not only did Carol and I do this on the fly, but we basiclly recorded it as we did it, one track, one take at a time, as usual, the drums were designed all other parts were played by me.  I love playing and performing with Ce Ce (Carol).  Her Passion for singing and performing Live only surpassed by.. Ummm, only nothing.  She had the moves the voice  the everything for the sound we wanted to put out there.  Oh, why are we not still playing???

Hmmm,  Life happens, she had a surgery to deal with. Her Son needed his Mother.  She is doing well, She’s in love and doing very well.  Her Surgery was a bummer but she’s getting better.  The love in her life is just what she needed, after the crap she went thru with a few others…

What’s funny is we were trying to write a Country Song.  It’s no secret I Love Country Music.  However, stuff like this just keeps pouring out of me.  Lately I’ve been writing Country Stylings along with some Acoustic Rock…  So it comes back round to music.  Everyday, with my eyes catching the start of a new day, the first thing in my head is ♫ a song, so begins this day with another song…

Sometimes It Rains, came to me sometime before we actually put it together and in it’s current state it’s not really done.  But like with most songs about life, when is it really done?    Just when we put our hart and soul into it, everything we’ve got, the ball of wax.  It starts to rain, and did you bring an umbrella?  Well, I don’t wanna give up the ending on it before it’s really done but sometimes we need a lil rain on our face, get a little wet.  Ever smell the air after a cool rain in the evening after a hot day.  Yessur, it’s sure a relief.  And that’s all I gotta say about that.  However this indeed will be the last song I release before it’s complete.  I now have what I need to begin recording again.  Sometimes it Rains just a little, back your hart down thru the middle… and you’ll work so hard just to make the sunshine…

I wanna thank a fellow blogger  James L Revels III  Composer for bringing many things to mind.  He stumbled upon “They Shine” and posted it on his blog.  He will find original tunes out there and posts it on his blog as Eargasms with those Tonic Scales… 🙂  ya know, he’s the First to get my handle.  I have had that as an email and handle for over 20 years and …  well, I must say Mr James is quite the composter… there are a few tunes on his blog. I may post one if  it’s ok with him but I’d rather have y’all go there and follow his works.  Music is truley more than just sound,  it’s that, that brings us all together in one form or another, whether it’s jammin, listening, Dancing (one of my fav’s)… nothin like a two step to make new friends!

So it’s Sunday Morning… Turn it on… Turn it up… and sing along.. Cause this is Country Music, We do… American Music!  the way I figure it, If you’re playin it in America… It’s American, you could be from another planet… You’re Still in my yard… So Rock On!!!

Peace…  God Bless…